The only thing I feel that I have to hold on to is hope. Hope that they will figure out whats going on in my brain. I have vertigo, which is, in a nutshell chronic dizziness. How can a person be driven crazy by a bout of dizziness? Well, allow to me to explain. Its like no matter what I do the world keeps spinning faster, and faster around me. No matter how much I scream the world won't stop and let me off. Its that feeling that you get after you're done spinning around in a circle, only that's my every hour, minuet, second of everyday of my life. Its sickening. I feel trapped inside my own body, and I don't like the decor, its s sickening shade of pale pink. I feel like its morphing me into this monster. This hollow shell of a translucent being. A person that I don't know, a stranger to everyone. A ghost. I don't like this new feeling. I don't feel the same, I feel the change engulfing me. Like when the sea takes out its rage on the fishing boat. My body is taking its rage out on me. And I don't have the power to fight back, no matter how hard I try. My boat isn't fast enough to out run the fury of the sea.
I feel very empty and confused.
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